Sometimes, its okay to be sad.
30.7.08
28.7.08
Life should be simple.
Theres way too much going on in our lives.
I wish i could leave it at that. We're all so caught up in ourselves.
A net of problems catch us from being able to swim forward and we let that become our world.
Drama is definitely what makes up most of the net sometimes.
Are we really so stupid to let something small hinder us?
Life should be simple. You know?
I think it was suppose to be that way.
God tells us that we shouldn't let the little things bother us, whether its a fight with your parents, or that you won't be able to do this or that, because there really is a purpose in why thats not good for us.
It puts us in a position to only think about ourselves, and did you know that life isn't about that?
Crazy, huh.
No, life was meant to be a simple gift and a friendship with Jesus himself. I sometimes think about how cool it would be if we never tasted sin. How everything would be so different.
Of course i get caught up in this world and all about how my life is going, but i just have to stop and wonder...why can't I be a lot more simple? Forgive and forget. Forget about me for once.
Jesus + me + how He wants to use me = life.
Life should be simple.
I wish i could leave it at that. We're all so caught up in ourselves.
A net of problems catch us from being able to swim forward and we let that become our world.
Drama is definitely what makes up most of the net sometimes.
Are we really so stupid to let something small hinder us?
Life should be simple. You know?
I think it was suppose to be that way.
God tells us that we shouldn't let the little things bother us, whether its a fight with your parents, or that you won't be able to do this or that, because there really is a purpose in why thats not good for us.
It puts us in a position to only think about ourselves, and did you know that life isn't about that?
Crazy, huh.
No, life was meant to be a simple gift and a friendship with Jesus himself. I sometimes think about how cool it would be if we never tasted sin. How everything would be so different.
Of course i get caught up in this world and all about how my life is going, but i just have to stop and wonder...why can't I be a lot more simple? Forgive and forget. Forget about me for once.
Jesus + me + how He wants to use me = life.
Life should be simple.
22.7.08
You know I...I never know what to say. When I'm around its all so different, i can see you, hear you.
I'm lost in a world of complete and total excitement, but only on the inside. I don't know if you've changed yet, and i really hope you haven't. Being a Christian makes it all the more hard. I want to be with you, yet i want it to be God's will. I want with all my heart to be submersed into Jesus that my eyes will cloud everything i look at; my vision become different. I want you to fight for me. Through the many chambers of God's love to get to me. For the first time in my life I want to share my faith with someone beside me, something so much more than just a silly relationship built only on feelings. But your my friend, and at times i don't want that to change. I feel so wrapped up in the image of us. And it makes everything stand still. I've heard too much, things i didn't want to hear. But i wanted to know. And i still do. Do you get where I'm at?
I told you...i never know what to say, especially how i feel this way. I feel stuck.
Trust me, if i didn't feel this way, i would be fine! I would feel completely normal without you!
But without you...oh...life would be so dull, now that i think about it. I've never known anyone so similar, yet so different before i knew you.
I told you...I just don't know...what to say. You see, you have my thoughts. Most of them at least.
When i lie awake in bed, when i pray, when i write...
But you see, i wont make a move this time. No, I don't want to screw up.
I thought by now I would change my mind about you. But your still there! Inside my head...
I've asked God to help me forget you if its not right, but that was a while back.
Is it true that I really do like you?
It must be. I can't explain it any further from that.
It does hurt what other people tell me. Yes, i know i'm not that pretty. Not as pretty as she is. No, i'm not that great of a people person as she is. Yes, i know shes the better choice. I love her to death...but is it fair that she gets them all? Can you please wake up and see. That I'm the one that likes you still.
I told you...I'm just not good at knowing what to say.
~~~~~~ I posted this. So you have the right to judge, question, or guess. Just know that you can't assume what an author writes to be about him/her self. ~~~~~~~~~
I'm lost in a world of complete and total excitement, but only on the inside. I don't know if you've changed yet, and i really hope you haven't. Being a Christian makes it all the more hard. I want to be with you, yet i want it to be God's will. I want with all my heart to be submersed into Jesus that my eyes will cloud everything i look at; my vision become different. I want you to fight for me. Through the many chambers of God's love to get to me. For the first time in my life I want to share my faith with someone beside me, something so much more than just a silly relationship built only on feelings. But your my friend, and at times i don't want that to change. I feel so wrapped up in the image of us. And it makes everything stand still. I've heard too much, things i didn't want to hear. But i wanted to know. And i still do. Do you get where I'm at?
I told you...i never know what to say, especially how i feel this way. I feel stuck.
Trust me, if i didn't feel this way, i would be fine! I would feel completely normal without you!
But without you...oh...life would be so dull, now that i think about it. I've never known anyone so similar, yet so different before i knew you.
I told you...I just don't know...what to say. You see, you have my thoughts. Most of them at least.
When i lie awake in bed, when i pray, when i write...
But you see, i wont make a move this time. No, I don't want to screw up.
I thought by now I would change my mind about you. But your still there! Inside my head...
I've asked God to help me forget you if its not right, but that was a while back.
Is it true that I really do like you?
It must be. I can't explain it any further from that.
It does hurt what other people tell me. Yes, i know i'm not that pretty. Not as pretty as she is. No, i'm not that great of a people person as she is. Yes, i know shes the better choice. I love her to death...but is it fair that she gets them all? Can you please wake up and see. That I'm the one that likes you still.
I told you...I'm just not good at knowing what to say.
~~~~~~ I posted this. So you have the right to judge, question, or guess. Just know that you can't assume what an author writes to be about him/her self. ~~~~~~~~~
1.7.08
Distracted.
First it landed on my outstretched sandy leg. It shimmered in a blue and green iridescent
manner and made its awkward way up to my bare stomach. I shook it off without a thought and closed my eyes again. I could feel the sweat starting to appear on my forehead and above my lip. I pulled my hat lower over my eyes to block out the unwanted sun overhead. A loud shriek caused my left eye to open and locate its source. Two little children, one with an overuse of floaties strapped on his body and the other wearing the definition of pink, throwing sand at each other in enjoyment. It'll be turned into something ugly once one gets sand in the other's mouth or eye. Won't be long now.
A seagull lands not too far from my chair. A moment later another joins in the knowledge of something edible being near. Why can't they be like other birds? They wait around for humans to throw them crap. While normal birds go and find their own food. I wonder why I never see a nest near by, containing seagull eggs or baby seagulls.
My mind gives up the thought as my eyes divert to the subtle ocean. Waves follow waves like new blankets being stretched out over a warm bed, but instead roll back in. People bob up and down enjoying the ride, while some dive under; trying to miss the undertow.
A loud scream sounds from the odd two kids.
Mister floaty boy runs back to his mom, followed by his pink sister. And while all this happens the green and blue bug flies back to greet my leg as I try to go back to sleep.
:)
manner and made its awkward way up to my bare stomach. I shook it off without a thought and closed my eyes again. I could feel the sweat starting to appear on my forehead and above my lip. I pulled my hat lower over my eyes to block out the unwanted sun overhead. A loud shriek caused my left eye to open and locate its source. Two little children, one with an overuse of floaties strapped on his body and the other wearing the definition of pink, throwing sand at each other in enjoyment. It'll be turned into something ugly once one gets sand in the other's mouth or eye. Won't be long now.
A seagull lands not too far from my chair. A moment later another joins in the knowledge of something edible being near. Why can't they be like other birds? They wait around for humans to throw them crap. While normal birds go and find their own food. I wonder why I never see a nest near by, containing seagull eggs or baby seagulls.
My mind gives up the thought as my eyes divert to the subtle ocean. Waves follow waves like new blankets being stretched out over a warm bed, but instead roll back in. People bob up and down enjoying the ride, while some dive under; trying to miss the undertow.
A loud scream sounds from the odd two kids.
Mister floaty boy runs back to his mom, followed by his pink sister. And while all this happens the green and blue bug flies back to greet my leg as I try to go back to sleep.
:)
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